I have been living with my parents, who also happen to live a solid thirty minutes from the ASU campus. It's not bad living there we get along most of the time but I am twenty and it's time that I live out in Tempe by my campus. I was going to move the July before my junior year but I decided to wait until my friends [we'll call them KM and Tina Fey] lease was up in November so we could all live together. It happened to be convenient to move in with Ryan [KM's older brother] until his roommate decided to buy a house, it was a huge bullet to bite and therefore he wouldn't be moving out until January. This proved to only be complicated for me.
Since KM and Tina Fey had to find a place to live come November we started looking at four bedroom houses to move into. We looked at a total of six. Father of KM is a Realtor and he "helped us" get into different houses. If by helped us I mean told KM to find the houses, call the landlords, and set up the appointments. After three good hours of searching we found one acceptable house. Tina Fey and I really liked it, but I could tell KM was hesitant. She tends to be easier to read than a book and this book was titled "I Want To Move Into Ryan's House". The other houses were less than sub-par. One particular house, located on the corner of a busy, main street, had a crooked terrace and dead cockroaches in the garage. I didn't even want to step inside but we had made the guy come back to show us around, it was only polite. We all agreed this was a "definite no". Another of the houses had a glass front door and gold flaked, glass tiles lining the hallways. The rooms were forest green, pale purple, and black. There were more colors in this house than in a Crayola box. We decided to call it quits and head back to base camp to discuss our findings.
Once inside I could tell immediately that the following conversation was not going to end well. I knew KM and Tina really wanted to move into Ryan's house and I can't really blame them saying that I did too, until I found out that there would not be a room for me to live in. At Ryan's there would be no lease, which is great because KM wanted to go on a study abroad and frankly so did I but it was highly unlikely I would ever get to go on one. So, the only thing holding KM and Tina Fey from moving into Ryan's was, me. We made a pro/con list that looked something like this:
house on stanley (a.k.a. Ryan's)
pros: no lease, pool
cons: sam cannot move in until Dec/Jan
house on fairmont
pros: cute
cons: lease, (and one other thing I cannot currently remember)
Now do you see why I feel like I'm the "con" of this entire situation?
It was the most uncomfortable situation of my life. I was sitting in Ryan's house with him, KM, Tina Fey, Sister of KM, Father of KM, and Douche [the roommate that refused to move out in November] arguing over how it's unfair that "I will be the one who has to wait until January to move" and "If they just want to live with Ryan don't let me stop it from happening." All the while they are falsely reassuring me that they "do want to live with me" and that "I shouldn't feel like I'm the only negative of moving in." It was pathetic and ugly. I wanted to get up, walk out the door and just refuse to deal with the situation. But we all know nothing good ever comes of that.
It's times like this that make me question peoples motives. The true human nature of those you thought you knew best. This is why I sometimes feel like people don't like me around, or are not really my friends. This perhaps is why I am incapable of forming strong bonds with others. I left Ryan's house that day frustrated and disappointed with KM and Tina Fey, questioning their intentions and if we should even bother continuing with our friendship. Needless-to-say, it did not set a good tone for the rest of the evening. I will not be hanging out with them tonight.
